Originally published February 3, 2020
“I can’t change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination.” Jimmy Dean
It’s funny how change comes about. For me, one day, I was working on some administrative tasks and stopped, looked down and thought out loud…”is this really what I want to do for the rest of my life?”. How is it that I have been doing this work for the last 20 plus years and I have never asked myself this question. Do I like doing this work? Does it make me happy? Does it fill my tank? When did I decide that this was the only thing I wanted to do? Did I decide or did I get caught up in my daily life and become idle and complacent enough to decide that this was enough?
Wow, eye opener. Have you ever thought that? Just stopped for that minute and looked around to discover where you ‘really’ were and ask how the heck did I get here?
This happened to me earlier this year. I felt like life was moving and I was just trying to keep in step. Starting a business, going to work, making sure all the balls I was juggling were still in the air. Trying to not worry about if one dropped or two…This is where it hit me. “It” being what was driving me. “It” being holy crap I don’t know if I want to continue to do something that doesn’t fill my tank of life, my tank of joy or my tank of purpose. What was my purpose?
Now that is a big question right? What is my purpose? My purpose is to pursue what makes me happy. Isn’t that all of our purpose though? What makes me happy? What makes us happy? Another big question. I want to be able to put my passion first and hang on to my dreams. My dream is to help others, my dream is to help people see themselves as the beautiful, kind and strong beings they are. My dream is to be the tap where love and acceptance flow steadily out of.
As I started to think about what that looked like, life changed. I was no longer happy where I was, personally or professionally. I started to seek out that which allowed me to be the passionate, worthy woman I am creating and following a life pursuit of helping others. Once I put it out there, once I took it from my safe hiding space inside of me and talked to others about it, cautiously, my perception changed. The way I looked at my life currently, changed. My lens changed. So then, did my perception of what I was, who I am and what I was and am capable of.
Things then started to move, people started to come into my life who triggered movement within my beliefs, movement within my expectations and movement to trust.
A few short months later, I was in a space to make a physical move. I trusted in myself enough to believe that what I have to offer, my value, my experiences, my true essence would carry me through. So I left a career that had been so beneficial in my life before and moved to a new city to start a new career. I still have moments of holy crap…what did I do? But essentially, it feels right. Things are coming together because I am creating my own path and my own new life. I have turned the page and started a new chapter.
Not only do I not know how it will end, but I am excited to see how I turn the next page. Change can be the landing pad for new ideas, new thoughts, doing things differently…try it…you just might like it.
“Change can be frightening, and the temptation is often to resist it. But change almost always provides opportunities – to learn new things, to rethink tired processes, and to improve the way we work” Klaus Schwab
Here’s to seeing our changes in our Truest Reflections.